2020, A disaster?

For me, it started in the mid of March. Everything was going fine until someone in Wuhan had to had a bat soup! Well, see the butterfly flapping its wings?
Until March, it was spread only in China but I was pretty convinced that it will reach out to our doors soon; no matter where we are located. Some people around me were least bothered, thinking they were immune but I was scared. Dead scared.

Somehow I had faith in our Prime Minister, I knew he was the best fit during this pandemic. He tried initially to build faith in the people by asking us to do something which majority felt was silly. Maybe even I did. But I could say with full honesty that I felt gladly those days.

The first Covid-19 case was reported in Kerala on Jan 30th and hence lockdown was implemented during end of March when more cases started to emerge and we were advised to stay home. Schools, colleges, offices, flights, trains, public and private transport everything was closed. The whole nation was shut down. Grocery stores, medicals and a very few restaurants were open but for a short period of time. People could only go out if they were wearing a mask and it was advised to carry a hand sanitizer. We followed a queue whenever we went out for shopping (only groceries were allowed). I remember taking things in bulk so I won’t have to go out for war anytime soon.

I had encountered such thing which I had never imagined in my wildest dreams. An invisible bacteria was making our lives miserable. Thousands of people were dying. Lacs were getting infected and I don’t know how many were tested every single day. Hospital’s beds were not enough when the number of cases inflated. Doctors were our only hope and guess what, some of them were martyred fighting the battle for us. It was a havoc.

WHO had announced emergency. Scientists and medical researchers were madly invested in making a vaccine. We waited for months for the vaccine to come but it wasn’t that simple. Several attempts were made but they weren’t effective. It was May and everything was still closed. We were locked up in our homes from past 2 months now. People were losing it. They were desperate to come out and live the life they used to live. But was it that simple? It was too much to ask for.
Some people were stuck away from their family. They couldn’t head back home because the flights or trains were on hold. Thousands of people lost their jobs. The factory workers were fired and asked to go back home; but how could they? If someone from late future is reading this then you’ll be surprised to know that they started 2000 KM journey on foot. Some of them could make it to their homes while some died in the middle.
Govt. decided to arrange buses at that time and that’s how it was managed.

The only good thing happening at this time was environment recovery. Rate of pollution dropped, very less litters, lesser CO2 emissions and earth was healing. We could see more greenery. The water in the canals of Venice was crystal clear. The sky was never clearer.

I live in Bangalore because of my job and even I was kind of stuck. I was afraid that any time that virus could knock on my door and I might not survive. Well, part of me hoped for that!
More than me, I was worried about my family in Bihar. If I catch it then I could get a good treatment in Bangalore but Bihar lacks medical facilities.
One day I was walking in my balcony and I saw two health workers, wearing masks and sanitizing the home which was just in front of mine. It had come so close, I knew it was the end.

The same day I went down to collect the grocery delivery and I saw that the delivery guy was having a red eye. After a couple of days, I caught it too. It was pretty bad. I took several eye drops but nothing was helping. My eye infection was getting severe everyday.
I checked the symptoms of covid-19 and yes, conjunctivitis was one of them.
Was I scared? Well, I’ll leave it to you to figure out.

Sometimes…

Writing after around 2 years. Suddenly got this thought that I’ve come a little far leaving something behind, which gives me peace.. And I could come up with what’s going on these days. This life and me, it’s complicated!

This life, it is too hard to understand.
It’s hard to get what our own life is saying.
I wake up, go to work, get back, eat, sleep, repeat.
I meet lots of people everyday. With some I’m totally me. With some I’m someone who I can never be. I laugh, I smile, I make them laugh and I cry.
Yes I cry, when I feel low, when I’m hurt.
Sometimes my boss appreciates & I’m a little high in the sky, I’m happy.
Sometimes I hit the ground pretty hard and I’m all left with tears.
Sometimes I can’t stop thinking about the one who criticized me,
Sometimes all I think about, is the way I’m looking today.
I’m a strong woman sometimes,
Sometimes I’m a childish character.
I’m vulnerable sometimes, and easily hurt.
I’m full of anger sometimes to blow people away.
I love people around me sometimes
Sometimes I hate the same people the most
I want to live alone, and I want to live with someone too.
I want to love someone very passionately sometimes
Sometimes I won’t even believe if love exists.
Sometimes I would miss my past,
I would wish to place the things the way they were before,
Sometimes I’ll think, I’ve tried to do this already,
Sometimes I’ll cry for the same reason,
Sometimes I feel like I don’t give a shit anymore.
Sometimes I wish to visit my family,
To embrace my granny,
To tell her how much I miss her and love her,
To meet my mom n dad n to hug them both at the same time,
Sometimes I’ll only shed tears missing them.
Sometimes I’ll cook,
Sometimes I’ll dance alone,
I won’t brush my hair for more than 3 days sometimes,
Sometimes I’ll look like a daydream.
I would listen to linkin park sometimes very loud,
Sometimes all I’ll listen to is “Arijit’s”.
Sometimes I would wish to explore the world, visit every where,
Sometimes I’ll just lie n do nothing.
Sometimes I’ll write things insanely,
And then I’ll erase them sometimes.
I would want to get wasted sometimes
N sometimes I would want to be treated like a princess.
Sometimes I want that special one around me,
But sometimes the scared heart would say, let’s enjoy your solitude 🙂

 

Got a job!! :) :)

And finally I can also feel the pleasure of being employed. 😉 It feels satisfied really. I had waited for a long time and here it comes. Mphasis, an HP company!

I can sense the happiness in my parents heart ❤ I really am glad that I’m the reason behind their happiness 🙂

Thank you God 🙂

Dream .. ^_^

How blessed you feel when your mother kisses your forehead ? I was sleeping in my dream and there was someone calling out my name. He was disturbing me. My mother scolded that person and said “let her sleep, she is tired” and she came to me and kissed my forehead and cheeks too. And I didn’t let her go by taking her in my arms. That moment was incredible even if it was just a dream, it filled my heart with an eternal satisfaction.
But here I am, away from my family and missing them like anything. I miss you mommy. I love you 🙂 :*

Ahhh finally !!

Hey there! For a long time, i was like dying to write here and here i am.. 🙂
I have got a lot to take care about right now but being here is satisfaction. All i want is to spend a little time with me, writing about the stuffs that is residing in my mind which is eagerly waiting to come out to this charming world.
Life is all about ups and downs. But we have to keep ourselves strong enough to go through the things and survive there like a big tree with a mighty root. And my life is waiting to take a U-turn and me too 🙂
A real struggle is there!
So, Mr. Struggle, wait for me, i’m coming..!! 🙂 🙂